February 11, 2009

SPECIAL EDITION


When I left my job, my security, my safe haven I had no idea of the true step that I was taking. I was taking a step towards my commitment to Samarra Am Management.

Each week there tends to be a common theme that shows up with my customers, on the radio, conversations with friends, etc. It shows up everywhere. This week it has been being unconscious to the cost of the price we pay for engaging in our habits. We oftentimes will decide that we are strong enough to take it, strong enough to stay, strong enough to bide our time, strong enough to make it ok for the other person. It is only later that we notice that we've put on weight, that we said "yes" to someone we've said "no" to for years because a piece of us knew that they really weren't the right choice, that we are drinking more, that we are crying more, that we are spending more....etc. We are all paying such high prices to keep our lives in the realm of what we know.

Leaving my job this time, was different. I have gone back to jobs so many times in my life only to always HAVE to leave desperate to be free - desperate to have a deeper conversation and a need for more security than the pay check could ever begin to satisfy. But this time as I wasn't able to pay some of my bills, I knew going back AGAIN was not an option. But what was I going to do? Going back to a job is what I knew. But this last time I was so aware of the price that I was paying to get that paycheck. I woke up everyday tired and crawled into bed every night at 8pm anxious to go to sleep. I stopped working out, I stopped working my business and I was gaining weight and franky I still felt like I didn't have enough money. When we changed floors and I was going to be sitting facing a wall with a 6 foot cubicle around me it was a final straw that I just couldn't bear. The next day after walking out of my job, my phone rang and I signed 8 new clients in two weeks. I attended networking events and had a blast, acquired through a client a gig with an amazing and spirtual jewerly designer who every time I am in her presence I receive "healing." I was working out again, lost my weight again and couldn't wait to wake up every day and get moving. I was free and spending my days doing what I love. So when fewer clients came in and I couldn't meet all my expenses on time, I was faced with the same choice I'd faced my entire life. Before I've always chosen to return to the security. This time, I knew that the cost I was paying to do that was a price that I was not willing to pay. By following what I believe is my calling, what I began doing was instead of strategizing around a job - I began stategizing around what fulfills me. What has steadily developed was to shed and let go and invest in what will build, build, build Samarra Am Management.

On March 1st I will be moving about three hours away to Upstate, NY. Many of you don't know this, but when I moved to New York City four years ago - I only knew two weeks before arriving that I was coming. I simply began to follow and trust my core and what I have gained since arriving here, I could have never even imagined. It is four years later and moving Upstate showed up in the exact same way. I will cut my expenses and have access to being able to hold regular seminars and retreats in a space that has a pure energy within it, that is owned by my mother. I can help her administratively with Big Tent Events, LLC and she can help me with marketing. I strategized from my core and once again have been amazed by what is the perfect partnership for both of us. I have no idea what lies in store for me up there but I feel an unbelieveable...certainity in the unknown, just as I felt when I moved here. When I stepped away from my job this last time, I was actually stepping towards my commitment....I was taking a final step towards myself, understanding the costs of staying in the sytem I know, a price I am no longer willing to pay. And hey, it has never gotten me what I really wanted anyway. Wealth, and living my life fulfilled, inspired and free!


I am reminded everyday of the costs to ourselves when we choose what we think we should do over our core values. I understand this path may not work for everyone. It requires a lot of letting go, it requires a lot of responsibility and it requires continuously growing. The only time I feel stagnant living this way is when I get scared and resist having to learn and grow and having to "move" again. But when I trust and have faith and follow my core - which is in alignemnt with the universe and my purpose for being here, as it is for every one of us, I want to do everything in my power to build systems and network and programs that support those who have chosen to explore the choices that are in alignement with their core. What we have been taught, isn't the truth. Go get a good job, pay your bills and retire. Don't be too passionate or dream too big because you might get hurt. I love that being alive in this time we get to have a reminder every single day of what is possible when you live your life from your core and do the work that inspires you. Barack Obama. I saw a video on You Tube yesterday by an Indian musician and the song was called Obama, Obama. it brought tears to my eyes. Inspiration coupled with action goes beyond fears, race, creed, money, and all the tools that we all use to keep us seperated. We aren't all Barack Obama's but we all have something inside of us that inspires us and encourages us to live beyond our fears and conform to the systems that are in place. What is happening now with the economy is the universe's way of trying to help us all let go of the old system that wasn't working. Fear, control, restraint, irresponsibilty and oh, did I say fear, fear, fear. There is no better time than now to let go of what is actually not serving you and begin strategizing from your core, not from money, status, things, but from WHO YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN!



SAMARRA AM MANAGMENT
If you'd like to schedule a consultation before I go, I'm offering a celebratory 25% off of all my packages that are booked during February. (conditions apply)

In the next two weeks, I will be announcing my regularly scheduled monthly teleseminars that will begin in March, and my new service for Samarra Am Managment clients only: 30 minute Core Check-In Consultations. Don't waste time trying to figure out anymore if you should do something or not - your core will reveal all in a matter of a few minutes. Let me help you allieviate the fears to do what you know you really want to!


Please join me for an informal farewell gathering on Sunday, February 22nd at Sacred Center New York from 11am-12:30pm at 16 Clarkson Street. www.sacredcenterny.org. It's one block from the Houston Street stop on the 1 line. And after the service we'll take a walk to a place close by to talk and laugh and have a fabulous time!
Please be at Clarkson at 10:45am and we'll meet in the lobby. Please let me know at emotionalmoney@gmail.com if you'll be coming!


Committing to Living and Building Communities Living Inspired, Fulfilled and Free!



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