November 27, 2006
WHAM!
I got fired oops I mean promoted. Depending on the day you ask me I got fired! I got promoted! For those of you that have been following "Emotional Money" I was overjoyed when I landed my Full Time Receptionist position. I had dreamed it up 6 months before. I got that position-busy but not too busy, weekly pay check, my own island-lots of paper work and I was able to set up my own systems. Well the first week I started the job, I also started rehearsals for my play and I had a business seminar approaching. Business seminar was a dream, my show closed last Saturday and I was looking forward to having some time to simply chill. On Friday, November 17th I'm called into the Vice Presidents office. "Samarra since we're not happy with your phone work but everyone likes you and your paperwork is always wonderful instead of throwing you out on the street we're promoting you to contract administrator position." WHAM!!!! The wind was knocked out of me, the color gone from my face. It was very clear I was not happy about "the promotion." It was also very clear to me that my ideal job was already gone. I had handed the application to my replacement and hadn't even known it. It was Friday at 12 noon and starting Monday I was to report to the 2nd Floor for my new position with no change in money. After 3 more months of probabtion than maybe a raise...Never mind that I was on the end of my third month as a receptionist and had already been counting on that raise. As a matter of fact, I thought that's why I was being called in the office. After all I had set systems in place, received compliments daily from people about how wonderful I was on the phone etc. etc. Unfortunately I had no idea that I was doing anything wrong or that they were unhappy with me. Unfortunately, I also didn't have the funds or energy frankly to simply walk out and look for another job. So on Monday I started my new position. I had to admit I liked having my own desk. And a place to be at lunch time, but as the receptionist I knew what I was doing-it was very easy. I have enough challenges acting and running my own business-my job I need it to be stress free. Easy and a steady paycheck. Period. But this new position is challenging-different computer systems and contracts I have to answer to 3 people directly-I won't have the freedom to schedule my conference calls anymore because my lunch won't always be when I want it to be if there is a contract that has to get out. I remember saying to one of my co-workers when I was going to be gone for a day to do a workshop. Please be sure I have a job to come back to. (I guess I should have been more specific.) The job was so perfect and everything-show and business was going well and I had some fears about something happening. This job is too perfect. So did my fear that things were going too well actually cause my WHAM! HMMMMMM! I guess I'll never know.
I don't have any words of wisdom this week. I'm thankful I still have a job. I'm simply sharing along with the positive come the WHAMS! I guess that's the thing about the journey-we get on the horse and get thrown off again and then we get back on and get thrown off again. And it just repeats over and over. I guess the variable is how long it takes to get back on the horse. (Of course, it's not really about the job-it's about trust. Call me naive but the smiles and comradie of the environment in no way prepared me for the fact that during those smiles they had been planning my fire/promotion unbeknowst to me.) If faced with this same thing again I need to be able to know I have the energy and resources to do what's best for me and not allow others to have so much control over my journey be it positive or negative. WHAM!!!!
Here is a beautiful story a reader emailed me after reading my blog-Whose Fault Is It Anyway? "When I was a child, I wanted to give away money -- my notion was to fly (with wings or my arms) around the world and drop money, probably pennies in those days, to people who were in need. I completely let go of that dream, forgot about it actually. Then in my early 40's, I worked for a foundation that gives money to grassroots organizations in Africa. I of course had to fly there to meet with groups, which I selected as possibilities and then recommended to the board for funding. And at some point I realized I was living my dream of giving away money, and flying to do so."
Virginia Hubbs, Boalsburg, PA
Thank you for sharing such a beautiful story.
UPCOMING DECEMBER BLOGS: I will be focusing on tools, tips, and stories related to our finances. Of course, the emotions under the money.
BLOGS/WEBSITES TO CHECK OUT:
1) If you need a copyeditor/PR/Marketing person for any field/any project please visit:
(She is truly an amazing writer with unlimited enthusiasm and creative ideas)
2) Upcoming fundraiser and event on December 13th. If you have your own business or would like to check out women owned businesses in time for the holiday please visit:
3) Barbara Sher, a pioneer in the coaching field. She's the NY Times best-sellingauthor of 7 books, and she has 4 PBS specials.Her website is http://barbarasher.com/
(I participated in an incredible teleconference call of hers which inspired last weeks blog-"Resistance Is Futile")
4) Andrea Reese-Actress/Playwright
(Incredible woman who has her own one-woman show. Check out her blog which has very insightful information regarding vegetarianism and her love of animals.)
http://eatingfear.blogspot.com
FOOD FOR THOUGHT: ONLY THE HEART KNOWS HOW TO FIND WHAT IS PRECIOUS
Fyodor Dostoyevsky
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